23 March 2013
Sad Clownfish Is Sad (Graphite, Digital)
I’ve been cleaning up my computer and I found this. It’s one of the illustrations I made for a presentation I did for my marine science class.
Basically, the clownfish are sequential hermaphrodite, which means they’re all born as males then eventually turn into females as they mature. In a group of clownfish, the most dominant female is found on the top, and the only one who can mate with female is the dominant male, which is the second dominant fish in their hierarchy. When the dominant female dies, the dominant male becomes the next dominant female. By the way, this image illustrates the part when the dominant female died, which explains why our little buddy here is sad. Anyway, after the dominant male’s transformation, he’s replaced by the next strongest male. The whole thing’s really weird and awesome.
Also, Nemo’s dad should be his mom.
I’m posting this because I had to write about something. I’ve recently realized how much I sucked at both retaining and articulating information. I’ve had so many moments where I wanted to say or explain something and couldn’t, just because I can’t articulate my thoughts. I’m also quite terrible at expressing myself. which is also why writing this. I have to get used to expressing myself. I’m really trying my best to improve. I really really have to get better, cause I’m tired of beating myself up for sucking.
18 April 2013
Deputy U.S. Marshal Raylan Givens (Graphite, Digital)
I’ve been marathoning the TV series Justified, and this has made me very unproductive, so I’ve decided to stop and try finishing something before I continue to watch season 4. Since I’ve been watching so much Justified, I’ve decided to do an illustration of the show’s main character, Raylan.
This is my first time making an animated gif. I don’t think I’m capable of doing anything complicated yet, so I just animated smoke coming out of Raylan’s gun. Unfortunately, the animation came out pretty slow and choppy, but hopefully I’ll get better at this.
17 October 2012
Entangled (Graphite, Digital)
This is based on a drawing I made 4 years ago. Click here to see the old drawing. I changed a lot of elements but it’s basically the same thing.
I found this while I was looking for old works to redraw. This is a drawing I made almost 4 years ago. I drew this a few months before I decided to go to art school. As silly as it may seem, I actually included this to my portfolio for my college application. It was one the best drawings in the portfolio.
I was really obsessed with the video game Fatal Frame 2. It inspired most of my drawing from 4 to 6 years ago. I drew a lot of girls wearing kimonos, girls wearing kimonos with scythes, girls wearing kimonos with wings, and girls wearing kimonos with wings and scythes.
I used to post a lot of drawings in deviant art, and I was really proud of my works. Everything changed when I started college. I became insecure when I saw other people’s drawings. I use to have at least 20 drawing on my deviantart account. Now most of them are deleted, cause I was too afraid of people seeing them. I became conscious about style and technique. The way I draw and my preference in art changed completely. I miss putting unnecessary elements in my works. I miss how I intentionally smudge when I shade. I miss how I wasn’t conscious about style, and how I wasn’t conscious about being repetitive with concepts.
I barely drew anything personal during my first 2 years in college. After a while I realized that the people who were better at drawing than me kept getting better, while I barely improved. So I made this art blog and decided to just draw and not care about being judged. And recently, I’ve become less conscious about my works. I’m posting this old drawing because I’m not scared of people judging it anymore. I now believe that I have the capacity to improve, just like everyone else.
This is the longest thing I’ve ever written on the internet. One of my biggest insecurity is my ability to write. I’m going to start forcing myself to write in this blog from now on. I know my writing’s crap now, but I doubt anyone’s gonna read this and still be bothered 2 years from now with how it’s poorly written.
By the way, I might redraw this.
26 September 2012
The Chair (Graphite, Digital)
We were required to make an artwork for our Philosophy class. We were each assigned a philosopher. I wanted to get Socrates, but I got Aristotle instead. We were given about 3 weeks to work on it, so I started reading about him 3 days before the deadline. I liked most of Aristotle’s ideas, except for the part where he discussed how women are incomplete versions of men. What a jerk. Anyway, I just chose his principle of the four causes.
According to Aristotle, We do not have knowledge of an object until we find its “Why?” One must undergo the four causes to understand an object. First is the material cause, which is the thing that an object is made of. So the material cause of the chair is wood. The second one is the formal cause, which is the pattern or essence of an object. This is basically the draft or blueprint of the object’s form when its materials are combined. The third cause is the efficient cause, which is the force that brings the materials together to build the object. In this case, the efficient cause of the chair could be a carpenter. The last one is the final cause, the purpose of the thing. So in this context, the chair’s purpose is to be sat on.
There’s something about the composition on this one that bothers me. I really need to study proper composition in illustration.